I don't share too much about my personal life here on belle maison, primarily because I don't want my blog to be a place where I unload my problems...but today I need to share a few things that are going on in my life. Maybe some of you have had similar experiences and can relate. (You may want to grab a cup of coffee or tea for this post...it's a long one!).
As many of you may know, I
had a baby back in May - a sweet little boy named Luke that I'm absolutely in love with. When it was just me and my husband, I had all the time in the world to blog, run my online store and work with design clients. But with a baby in my life now, things have shifted and I've had to make some major changes to accommodate my "new" lifestyle. Working from home and caring for my son full-time (aside from either of the grandmas babysitting once a week), has turned my world upside down, to say the least...not in a bad way, just in a different way. Any sort of routine I had before has gone out the window which has been a struggle for me to accept - especially with me being all "Type A" personality! I have a hard time letting go of control
and a hard time asking for help - a combination that has left me in over my head more often than not. But with a baby, you're kind of left with no choice than to let go of
some control, unless you're superwoman, which I've learned I am
NOT.
One reason I waited 5 years into my marriage to have a baby was fear of the very thing I'm talking about - having the life, marriage and career that I worked so hard on,
change. The thing I didn't realize, and couldn't have known until I experienced it first hand, was that it
would bring change but in a wonderful way. My priorities have shifted and what once might have been super important to me has taken a back seat or become less significant. Luke is my number one priority now and being the best mommy I can be is what really matters.
Now, I'm not saying you can't have children and a career - women do that every day! I'm just saying for me personally, I've had to re-prioritize and shift things around so that I can still do what I love (interior design & blogging) and raise a family without sacrificing my sanity. All that being said, it's with a tinge of sadness but also some relief that I've decided to close my online shop,
Modern Chic Home. When I launched the shop nearly 3 years ago, I had a different agenda and was able to stock, pack and ship out super unique and fabulous items (all on my own, BTW - no assistants, no employees). Eventually I transitioned into carrying vendors with products that could be "drop-shipped" directly to the customer so I wouldn't have to spend several days a week packing orders in a warehouse (which allowed me to continue working with clients and keep up the blog). Things started to slow down early this year and with all of the competition out there (especially with big names like Amazon and Overstock), it's really hard to compete and stay relevant. I've gone back and forth about this, prayed about it and discussed it over and over with my husband.
In the end, it's time to let the store go...for now at least. I have strong faith in God and feel in my heart He has other plans for me and my family. I'm still going to be working as an interior designer and most importantly, I'll still be blogging :) I actually have plans to re-vamp the blog (can anyone refer me to an amazing person to re-design my current layout?), in addition to bringing you better content and inviting more guest contributors - I want to continue connecting with my fabulous readers by sharing my passion for as long as I am able!
Sorry for the super long post - for those of you who are still reading, thank you! I sincerely appreciate your support and kind words, always. You're the reason I continue doing what I do! Next week I'll be announcing the official date Modern Chic Home will be closing (if you have a current order with me, no need to worry it will ship out as planned). Have any advice or experiences to share? I'd love to hear any and all thoughts on this! Thank you and have a fantastic weekend. xoxo - Julie
The little love of my life :)
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